One of my favorite times of the day is bath time. Both of our boys LOVE taking a bath. The giggles and squeals of bath time are sweet joy to my ears. I am so blessed with these little boys. I hope that I can savor these moments. Often as I am going into Juder's room at night to scoop him out of his crib and have one last snuggle of the day I think I can drink up this time in life and place the memories in a special place in my brain that I will never forget..... I know that someday I will look back and remember this time as the best time of my life. I desperately want to remember every detail of this place. The sounds of laughter and squeals; the smell of baby lotion on his roly poly skin; the chocolate smiles; the sweet I wuv you's.
Elijah needed some one on one time a few weeks back as Jude is in a bit of a needing mommy phase. He took me on a date to the "ice cream store" Menchi's frozen yogurt and we shared some "chocate with spinkles!" He was sure to open the door for me because "a gentyman opens the door for a wady!" --- daddy scored bonus points for that one.
I'll love you forever stinky face. Or chocolate face. You are and will always be my first baby. As you get older and turn into a little man I am seeing so many wonderful things about you. You are so compassionate whenever someone else is hurt or crying you are such a good friend and are sure to be the first to go over to them and say, "Its ok friend." You are full of life Elijah. Sometimes momma wonders where the energy comes from and then I often look at myself and think I might know where your energy comes from! Seeing the world through your eyes has been so refreshing to me. Finding joy in the small things of life. Loving with your whole heart. Having no guard on your heart. It is you who reminds me what it really means to have faith like a little child. I don't think I really every knew what Jesus meant when he said to have faith like a child. But now that I have you I can see. You have not been jaded by the world. You love with all of you. You believe with all of you. You live with all of you. And this momma can't get enough.
These deep baby blues can nearly get this mommy to do anything. Their power is beyond my control.... my kryptonite.
I fall deeper in love with this man daily. He is the perfect provider working hard for our family and loving the kids at his school that God has given him as a mission field. He then comes home and loves his family so so well. I was explaining what a best friend was to Elijah the other day and he asked, well who is your best friend mommy? I paused and then said well Daddy is my best friend. Elijah smiled and said, "Yeah. But you love him too." And I do. I do love him too.
These pictures are blurry and out of focus and I just don't care. I never want to forget every placement of these rolls, those double chins. The giggles with changing a diaper. I often think as I head into the hospital that I wipe butts all day at home and then head into work and wipe some more. And I am so grateful that that is my calling right now. Sounds crazy to say that I am thankful to wipe butts. But I AM. With each diaper change I know that I am getting to be the mommy to these precious boys and that I have been blessed with that task. Raising up little men is definitely exhausting, draining and occasionally monotonous (Cars movie again???) but it has been the most refining, refreshing, joyous, important, soul satisfying work that God has given me to date. And for that I am so so thankful.
What moments of your day to you need to find thanks? Or where do you see your blessings?
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